Eeeek!

OK - so my final trial did NOT go well. My opening was great, my direct was great, my cross exam & my closing SUCKED. I completely forgot an entire page of my closing - you can see me on the video tape. I paused for about 20 seconds with that deer in the headlights look - totally blanked - and then say "thank you" and sat down. I never asked for relief and my argument just sort of hung out there. It was AWFUL.

On the bright side - I am WAY beyond the 1L freaking out-ness of this type of thing. I realize that when a class is worth 3 credits but demands 6 credits worth of work, then I might not get a perfect score. I don't have enough time for working full time and working on 14 credits - I have enough time to work on 11. That is what I do. And C is for "counselor", that's good enough for me. I still would like to see B's & A's - which I largely do get - but they aren't imperative any more.

I'm still a little freaked out about it though. So sad. The judge actually asked me if I was going to be a trial lawyer. My answer was an emphatic NO. I want to be transactional.