Sometimes I am really terrified of graduation. Why? Because I quit my job to come over here and do what I'm doing (which has been great, don't get me wrong) but my last job hunting experience after undergrad was less than stellar. I get freaked out thinking about going through this process all over again. I'm worried that I'm going to just start throwing spitballs at the wall again and try to see what will stick. I'll settle for the first offer I get even if it isn't right because I don't know what else to do. I feel like I don't even know how to go about finding a job. I want to write my own hire-me ad. It will read like this:Intelligent, driven soon-to be law school graduate seeks
opportunity in major multinational corporation.
Prior employment includes 5 years contract management
for major insurance company. Undergraduate degree
in Agronomy makes this candidate a great fit for any
agricultural company! Wants to travel, facilitate
international trade and protect intellectual property
rights abroad. Currently interning with the United
Nations Commission on International Trade Law with
a focus on enforcement of foreign arbitral awards.
Heck! If employers get to write ads, why can't I? I should take out a full page ad in the Star Tribune. Why not? It makes no sense. It feels like all the cards are in the deck of the employer. People say "well, you're interviewing them too." Sure, but I also know that I need to find a job. Fortunately, I have savings enough to get me through 6 months. After that, well, who knows. I get so crazed when people tell me that I'm so talented and with all my experience and my education with the internship on top of all of it, I have nothing to worry about. That isn't how I feel. I feel adrift. It seems like an enormous task. Will I ever find something that really fits? I feel woefully unqualified, which really is contrasted with the way that all the younger people I go to school with feel. They figure hey, I have a law degree...what else could you possibly want? Um? Experience? Skills? Something to offer. I do think that I have a lot to offer, but I don't even know how to go about finding the right job and the person that I need to talk to about it. ACK!
I just want Cargill to call me and tell me that they would love to come have me - what with my undergrad in agronomy, my experience with contracts and law degree - travel around the world facilitating their international trade transactions and contracts while protecting intellectual property rights for them in those countries at the same time. And I want them to pay me $90,000+ to do it. Is that really so much to ask?!
Perhaps I should just focus on finishing my paper and registering for next semester's classes. Freaking out about this really won't do me any good, now will it?
opportunity in major multinational corporation.
Prior employment includes 5 years contract management
for major insurance company. Undergraduate degree
in Agronomy makes this candidate a great fit for any
agricultural company! Wants to travel, facilitate
international trade and protect intellectual property
rights abroad. Currently interning with the United
Nations Commission on International Trade Law with
a focus on enforcement of foreign arbitral awards.
Heck! If employers get to write ads, why can't I? I should take out a full page ad in the Star Tribune. Why not? It makes no sense. It feels like all the cards are in the deck of the employer. People say "well, you're interviewing them too." Sure, but I also know that I need to find a job. Fortunately, I have savings enough to get me through 6 months. After that, well, who knows. I get so crazed when people tell me that I'm so talented and with all my experience and my education with the internship on top of all of it, I have nothing to worry about. That isn't how I feel. I feel adrift. It seems like an enormous task. Will I ever find something that really fits? I feel woefully unqualified, which really is contrasted with the way that all the younger people I go to school with feel. They figure hey, I have a law degree...what else could you possibly want? Um? Experience? Skills? Something to offer. I do think that I have a lot to offer, but I don't even know how to go about finding the right job and the person that I need to talk to about it. ACK!
I just want Cargill to call me and tell me that they would love to come have me - what with my undergrad in agronomy, my experience with contracts and law degree - travel around the world facilitating their international trade transactions and contracts while protecting intellectual property rights for them in those countries at the same time. And I want them to pay me $90,000+ to do it. Is that really so much to ask?!
Perhaps I should just focus on finishing my paper and registering for next semester's classes. Freaking out about this really won't do me any good, now will it?
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"The greater the artist, the greater the doubt." ~Mark Twain
and...
"Women are like teabags. We don't know our true strength until we are in hot water." ~Elanor Roosevelt
People see your potential, but proving it to yourself is the biggest and most important challenge.
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