I think I'm having a nervous breakdown. Just totally losing it. I don't think anyone can fully understand what this feels like unless they've DONE it. Even people who have done law school & are all "oh, I know how that feels"...no, I don't think you do. Not unless you've carried 11 credits a semester and worked full time. Doing both is enough to make your head explode. I've been doing this for damn near close to 3 years now, and today I feel like I can't do it all anymore. I want to up & quit my job. I think I scared the crap out of my mother this morning because I called her & told her that I think I'm having a panic attack. I'm just SO DAMN TIRED. I don't remember what it feels like to not be tired. I can't remember what it feels like to feel well rested. I used to hop out of bed at 4:30 in the morning to go to the gym, get my workout in, roll on in to work and feel all fresh and glad to face the day. Now I drag myself out of bed at 6:00, barely able to keep my eyes open. I've been tired for SO long. I just want to know what it feels like to be AWAKE.
Am I going to be able to stick this out for 4 months more?
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